| Ok you ready for this? I haven't posted in the absolute longest time so here is the big kahuna entry.
School:
First and formost. Well for the first week of school I was like seriously depressed, I pretty much hated all my classes except one (bio), and not to metion the fact that I was up to my eyeballs in homework, and I was getting no sleep and wasn't ready for school and stuff. But then I had the weekend, which was super fantastic look under weekend for more reference lol, and then come monday morning I was all good and happy and actualyl loved all my classes, but then I had a councilers meeting and my mom said I had too much and made me switch up my schedule, so i've dropped teeples and chapin, and you woudl think i would be dancing with joy, but instead I'm all sad again because I've come to the realization that I loved ms. teeples, like she seemed like the nicest old lady ever and like she had been through so much it just made her wise and strong, and i miss her now, but i did go and talk to her and tell her my schedule changed because of spanish not because i wanted to switch out of her class, and she told me that i was mature for telling her that and that i should come and visit her alot because she would really like to get to know me, which i am most definately going to take up her offer because she seems liek she is just once in a life time lady. Also i don't know what trips to do for bio... any suggestions?
Boys
Ok so I'm having lots of guy troubles. So first of all HS yes, I know he is like all I talk about, so he was being nice the first few days of school, saying hi and actually talking to me, he even put his arm around my shoulder and asked how i was, then all of a sudden he wasn't nice anymore, and i invited him to my party and he he said he might come and then he didn't even show up, what a jerk and i talked to him on aim and he wasn't very friendly or talkitive (though like a week before he was totally talkitive and stuff) and also i have apparently a go to homecoming with HS (with ash and austin) card, but what if i decide to go with him and then he bails the last minute like he has done with everything else? because this year i am determined to go to all dances.
M, ok so M came to my party and my goodness was friendly, and I can't decide if I like him. I'm not going to be stupid and say he doesn't like me, because i think he might, i mean he was hugging me all night and putting his arm around me on my hip and like talking to me and stuff, but again that could all just be just friends friendly, i don't know. But if he did like me do i like him? and do i want to ask him to sadies, or what if he asks me to homecoming before HS officially does, and if i say yes then is that blowing off HS? and if i say no then HS bails then what do i say to m when he asks how it was and stuff, and would it be as just friends with HS, ew im so confused, because m is just about the nicest guy ever and so funny and like just plain fun, but the fact of the matter is i just don't feel the same way about him, similar to how i felt for johnny.
Chip, ok so I haven't talked to chip since that night, and the sad pat is i really really miss him. I know I shouldn't, he was my absolute perfect summer fling, but I see him at school and he pretends to not notice me, no hi, no even acknowledgement, and i decided to text message him just asking how everything was going and he just didn't text me back, seriously y would he do that, I'm not asking him to go out with me, just simple friends, that is all i wanted (well i wanted more just like him, but i could have dealed with just friends) so wat do i do, do i try to talk to him at school if i see him, or what? i don't want to seem like i am chasing him or anything.
oooo very very hott guy in spanish, unfortunately i will never see him again because i switched out of that class, but he was native, and seriously i never considered spanish a "romantic" language until i heard him speak it, seriously i just wanted to run up to the front of the class and kiss him lots, mmmm, and now i will never see him again :(
O yes and the other night i had a dream about johnny and we got back together and we were making out... and i liked it alot, but i can't like him again... and i don't... but so far my dreams haven't really lied about my feelings for guys...
Party
so my party was fantastic (and i don't mean that in a conseded way) maybe other people didn't have fun i dunno, though they said they did, but i had a blast, I won't be throwing another one any time soon, but it was super de duper de fun.
All right so that is all i can think of, sry for such the long update, im gunna write again more regularely, but that is all, and i most def need advise so give it here. |
